I know that no one reads this and I am writing this for my own personal reasons. In this past month alot of things have changed especialy me i have come to realize many things and the most important of those things is the true way to happiness and it is not threw any drug happiness is something that you must find. A drug can show you the way to happiness but it is not what trully makes a person happy. On that note i have also learned (almost) the meaning of life and that trully is a wonderfull thing. It is almost impossible to explain it to anyone and belive me i have tried. I have made many mistakes in my life and I wont make them again. ( Well atleast i will try not to). The concept of life is the most confussing thing in the world. Most people never take the time to think of the great misteries of life and if they did most people are to stupid to understand them.The only things i cant really figure out is the concept of God and Satin, and insanity. I guess i am writing this to just finally say this. I dont care if anyone reads it or not but i hope that everyone in the world finds happiness and understanding.  

   

   

                                      

 

Only You know my pain inside
You've been there when no one else could be
When tears fall from my eyes
I know that You are always there
No matter what's in my heart
You are the One who cares
When I doubt, You stand by me
So I'm not ashamed to say the way I feel
I love You, You are my Everything

 

 

"In space the stars are no nearer
Just glitters like a morgue
And I dreamed I was a spaceman
Burned like a moth in a flame
And our world was so fucking gone

I'm not attached to your world
Nothing heals and nothing grows

Because it's a great big white world
And we are drained of our colors
We used to love ourselves,
We used to love one another

All my stitches itch
My prescription's low,
I wish you were queen
Just for today

In a world so white what else could I say?

And hell was so cold
All the vases are so broken
And the roses tear our hands all open
Mother Marry miscarry
But we pray just like insects
And the world is so ugly now

Because it's a great big white world
And we are drained of our colors
We used to love ourselves,
We used to love one another

All my stitches itch
My prescription's low,
I wish you were queen
Just for today"